Shattered

I think the imaginery world I had built has broken.
Shattered would make more sense.
Its gone.
Broken into a million pieces.
Saddening yes.
But it was the reality check I needed.
I guess.
Men confuse me.
I hate the way they make me feel.
But its my own fault.
I'm worthless so I get treated as such.

Reckless

Emotions.
They're trouble.
Annoying.
I lost mine for a little bit.
But they came back.

Love.
A feeling that makes your heart pound, your chest hurt, lips tingle.
Its not fun at all.
Mostly bc I fell in love.
With a stranger.
Someone I barley know.
And I'm in a commited relationship.

Reckless.
I am that.
Crazy and stupid and insane.
In love.
I'm in deep shit.. 

Adventure in the land of the shameless..

Oh wow.
Those two words explain so much and so little in my life.
What did I do?
Those four words are the words I SHOULD ask myself yet I don't.
There's so many shouldn't dos in my life. Yet I do them anyways. They don't make much sense to me. My body drives me to do the insane.
My brain doesn't tell me to stop.
My heart is in constant pain so it just agrees.
Oh how that gets me into trouble..

Balance and wisdom. My new mantra.
The balance to organize the chaos in my life and the wisdom to learn from my mistakes.
Its hard to do that but I'll figure it out.

Check in?

I feel like my life is a mess.
I really have no one to blame but myself on that though.
I do things to myself to hurt me nd others..
I wish I understood why..
I'm changing for the worse.
My sanity is checked out.
Insanity checked in.

Yea i see this happening...

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WTF?

I have nothing but time to spend with the guy I'm currently crazy for.
His tire blows. The spare blows.
He fucking has time for everyone else but me.
To hang out and have fun with everyone but me..
Is there room for me in his life?
I don't think there is.
This feels like a waste of time.
So why do I wanna keep trying?
Bc I'm a fucking idiot in love.

Fml

Men confuse the hell out of me.
We're not dating.
We're dating but not boyfriend / girlfirend.
We're together but he doesn't act like we are..

What the fuck do I have to do??
I am in love with this guy..
And I'm wondering if I should bail now before I get hurt.
=/