Shattered

I think the imaginery world I had built has broken.
Shattered would make more sense.
Its gone.
Broken into a million pieces.
Saddening yes.
But it was the reality check I needed.
I guess.
Men confuse me.
I hate the way they make me feel.
But its my own fault.
I'm worthless so I get treated as such.

Reckless

Emotions.
They're trouble.
Annoying.
I lost mine for a little bit.
But they came back.

Love.
A feeling that makes your heart pound, your chest hurt, lips tingle.
Its not fun at all.
Mostly bc I fell in love.
With a stranger.
Someone I barley know.
And I'm in a commited relationship.

Reckless.
I am that.
Crazy and stupid and insane.
In love.
I'm in deep shit.. 

Adventure in the land of the shameless..

Oh wow.
Those two words explain so much and so little in my life.
What did I do?
Those four words are the words I SHOULD ask myself yet I don't.
There's so many shouldn't dos in my life. Yet I do them anyways. They don't make much sense to me. My body drives me to do the insane.
My brain doesn't tell me to stop.
My heart is in constant pain so it just agrees.
Oh how that gets me into trouble..

Balance and wisdom. My new mantra.
The balance to organize the chaos in my life and the wisdom to learn from my mistakes.
Its hard to do that but I'll figure it out.